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Quest 102

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Merlin's Mirror tells the future and tells it true, for anyone that looks into it; that was the story I always heard. It was one of three treasures of the kingdom of Daventry, magical in nature, that served to protect the kingdom and its people from tragedy. A chest of gold that never emptied ensured wealth and prosperity; a magic shield protected the bearer and the kingdom from harm. And the magic mirror foretold the future, so the people could prepare for calamity and act to avoid it.

But I suppose the future can be a double-edged sword, can't it? Suppose someone is granted the knowledge of his future, but with that comes the knowledge that no matter what he sees, there's nothing he can do about it to prepare for it. To learn of a tragedy and then be completely helpless to do anything about it, and forced to bear that knowledge right up until the day it comes to pass...

In that case, it'd almost be better to remain in ignorance, wouldn't it?

I've always thought that the cruelest curse of all is the one that shows us what might have been--for better or for worse. And that's almost as bad, really, because without that curse, thoughts of what might have been are easily brushed away, or ignored, or treated as idle daydreaming. But for chance, or love, or luck, or whatever it was that carried me through Lolotte's castle undetected, I might've been the daughter-in-law of a witch. But for chance, I might've been the slave of a wizard all my life, and never had a chance to know my true name, or the names of my parents. What might've been, for Neil and Todd? Suppose they'd had parents like mine, rather than the fathers they ended up with? ~~I hate that it had to work out this way...and I can't blame him a bit for doing it, either. Oh, Todd...~~

But what might've been--it's worse, isn't it, to know what will be?

The nightmares are only just starting to go away again, but I still can't sleep. I have something entirely new to haunt my dreams now...

Why can't I fix it? Why can't I find a way to just--why can't I just make it right?

Why him? Why does he have to die? The whole world needs him and it's the right thing to do, of course it is, but--but why? Why can't we save him?

But at least I understand why, now. Bumblebee doesn't hate me, and that's...that's something. Mikaela is back, and that's something, too...though I hope she and Sam manage to work things out, soon. ~~It'll make him happy to have her back, he deserves to be happy as long as he's here...who knows how much time he'll have left back there...~~

You promised me that things would always get better, Sam...

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It's been...goodness, a week and a half since the last time I was cursed. I rather wonder if I ought to start being concerned? The random curses all seemed to strike last weekend, I know, so I think it's safe to say that won't be lying in wait for me this weekend, but I can't help but wonder if the lull is a sign that there's something dreadful in store...

I know I really shouldn't look a gift horse in the mouth, as it were, but after eleven and a half months in the City, one starts to see these sorts of things as less of gifts and more of bad omens. Still...even if there is something bad on the horizon, there's no way of knowing it until it comes, is there? So I suppose there's no use worrying about it, either.

Well, after all the excitement on Tuesday, I suppose it's only natural that I've mostly kept to myself the past few days. But there's something pleasant about just following along a daily routine, too, so that's not so bad. The Library keeps me supplied with plenty of things to read, and there are few better ways to spend a summer afternoon than sitting in a tree with a good book and listening to the birds as the day goes by around you.

Though I do wonder--I can think of plenty of remedies for helping to put one to sleep, like warm milk and soft music and all that, but are there any good ones for helping a person to stay awake? Other than loud noises, that is. I think I've had my fill of those for quite a while.

[OOC: Moody princess has been moody for days, thanks to the rising angst levels from most of her friends, but is trying her very best to hide it. Feel free to notice that she doesn't sound much like her usual upbeat self, but be forewarned--she'll most likely deny it and snap right back into cheerfulness right away.]

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There is coffee. And sugar.

Really? Well, I'm never one to turn down an opportunity to eat more candy, I suppose...

Hey, hey, why so sad, princess?

~~Erk.~~

Sad? Don't be silly, I'm not sad at all! Just, um...a bit tired, I suppose.

If I have met a worse liar than you, I don't remember them.

I am not a bad liar! ...And I wasn't lying just then, either.

You're not just tired. It's cool if you don't want to talk about whatever's bothering you. But I know you're not just tired.

...All right, you caught me. I'm worried about some of my friends, and it's been keeping me up at night, and that's why I'm tired. I keep trying to think of something I might do about it, but...well.

That sucks, I know how much you care about your friends and if you can't help them, it must drive you crazy.

~~You have no idea--~~

It just seems like...well, like if I were thinking hard enough about it, or the right way about it, or if I were seeing something I keep missing, that I'd be able to find a way to help, after all. And I know I'm awful about thinking too much sometimes, but every time I try to think of something else, I keep coming back to it anyway.

Is there anything I can do to help?

Can you think of any remedies for helping to keep someone awake?

Yes. Who is it and why?

It's me, and it's because I don't want to accidentally fall asleep in the Library in the middle of the day.

...

Well, energy drinks are always a good start.

Energy drinks...? Oh, are those the ones that come in the tall cans with the lightning bolts and things on them?

Yeah. Monster and Red Bull are the two big ones.

Ugh, I'm not drinking anything named after a monster. But the other doesn't sound...quite so bad, I suppose.

...Sam, you're happy here, aren't you?

I like Monster better, but both are pretty good.

Are you kidding me? You, Mikaela, and Bee are all here. I love it here. I mean, I miss home and stuff sometimes but I know I'll go back eventually and until I do, I really like this place.

~~Good, now just...stay here forever and nothing will--~~

Good, I'm glad. I like having you here, too...and you're right, it isn't so bad here, really, even if the curses are tedious and even awful at times.

Life is tedious and awful at times.

And sometimes there's really nothing we can do about it, is there?

Nothing more than just keep going on despite them. Or in spite of them.

~~Until one of those tedious and awful things kills you, and what do you do then?~~

You're right. There's always a reason to go on...whether it's someone else counting on you, or simply you counting on yourself. But I suppose we can't help but lose sight of that every once in a while.

It's alright. Even you need cheering up every once in a while.

And that's why I'm glad I have you.

When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone ...

Mm? That's about how I feel at the moment, yes, Bumblebee.

When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on ...

No...I know, and I will. It's just hard to sleep at night when...well. You know.

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One's future shouldn't be considered set on stone. That would be like accepting fate when is our duty to challenge it and make our own destiny.

What happened, Rosella?

That's what I'd always hoped, that coming here and learning things...that it would let us make a difference when we went back home. But if we forget everything, and never remember our time here, and go on as though none of it had ever happened at all...then how are we supposed to change it?

Who told you that you forget everything? I remember every single thing when I went home.

...Cain did. He said when he left, he went home and forgot everything, and it wasn't until he came back that he remembered it all again.

This is not universal, you realize, Rosella.

No, but even so...even if some people do remember, others don't. And how can you tell if you will or not? What if you do everything you can to fix something and then you're one of the ones that forgets?

If you are uncertain about the future, look a way to ensure you remember.

To ensure I...

...Well, there's no way of knowing, but...maybe I could...

Deity trade exists as last resort.

Do you think the deities could really make it so that we'd be sure to remember? I suppose since they're the ones who brought us here...and they do deal in memories...

Maybe I'll have to ask.

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