Quest 242

[primrosella]

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Last Year's Resolutions
1. I resolve to stop tormenting Blue with puns. Well, at least some of the time.

Managed...though rather not the way I'd intended it at the time.

2. I resolve to continue to be better than Sam at Mario Kart.

Managed...but again, it's a rather hollow victory, isn't it? Oh, rats...but I couldn't have known back then, could I?

3. I resolve to listen carefully to my friends when they give me good advice, because I usually need it when they offer it, whether or not I realize it at the time.

Managed.

4. I resolve to be more modern in some things, and to stay properly old-fashioned in others.

Managed, I should think.

5. I resolve to trust the people who want to protect me, without immediately insisting that I don't need it.

Managed.

6. I resolve to find ways to protect myself, so I can occasionally insist that I don't need it.

Managed. Even if I don't always like it.

7. I resolve to be truthful. Especially to myself.

Managed. As best I can, anyway.

8. I resolve to learn how to drive the car, at least enough to get someone to the hospital if there's another emergency.

Managed.

9. I resolve to stop worrying about love. Well, at least some of the time.

Managed.

10. I resolve to make my father proud of me.

Managed. You would be, wouldn't you, Daddy?

And from two years ago, now...

10. I resolve to kiss someone because I want to, and not because of a curse--breaking it or otherwise.

Managed.

And really, that's quite a bit of progress, isn't it? Especially for that last one. I suppose it's true that late is still better than never.

It's strange to see how far I've come in a year, looking back on the resolutions I made back then and the ones I'm pondering over now. We did begin to grow a bit apart after Sam died, didn't we? I felt so awful because I knew, and Bumblebee made me promise not to say anything, and even after he left and it happened I still felt so terrible about never saying anything, and wondering if it could've been different if I had...

But I suppose that's just how it is for a lot of things, isn't it? Every time one makes a choice, there's a chance to wonder what might've been different. And goodness knows I've made plenty of bad choices, but...even so, I'd like to think I've made some good ones, too. It's hard to know how a choice will turn out, especially if it's one that has to be made without hesitation. There isn't time to consider all the different ways it might pan out; one just has to do the best one can with what one has, and keep trying until it all works out.

It's been quite a year, really. That horrible curse in March when Sam and I...when we both died, and then Sam moved my room to this one so I wouldn't have to think about it. And then Sam left, and Megumi did as well, and Duo was here and then he was gone, and then it was Blue and now it's Penny, too. And then Rumplestiltskin came along somewhere in the middle of it, and there was that mess with the graveyard when Peter...when he died to save me, and then there was that ark and the train and now we've just had a mess with a unicorn getting free and hurting people, and that's really rather my fault, too, even though I'll never admit it to Edmund.

Bad enough that he won't stop teasing me about my nose. There's nothing wrong with my nose! And he'll never let me forget it if I say a word about the unicorn, either, so I'm not going to. I'll just manage feeling guilty on my own.

But there've been some good things, too, haven't there? My birthday was a wonderful thing. Neil coming back to life again...it really doesn't get much more wonderful than that. And Merry and Riff are here, now, with Cain. We did another play and that went off marvelously. And I'm growing up, too, I think.

I had my first kiss. Not from a curse. Not from anything except that I wanted it.

I'm four months in to my third year here, now. And three is an important number, isn't it? So I suppose it's only natural that this should've been an important year, too, both for good and for bad. I don't think I'm ready to be twenty years old in a few months--twenty! Mother would have a fit if she knew. I'm only supposed to be seventeen, back home--but I do think I'm ready to keep going on, no matter how long this adventure lasts.

Other worlds needed my friends more, and that's why they were taken home when they were. That's what I'd like to believe. And if that's so...then that just means that all is well in Daventry, doesn't it? If they haven't needed me yet, then perhaps that's just a sign that they're safe and sound, just as they are. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

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This Year's Resolutions
1. I resolve to make peace with friends leaving, and learn to remember them without missing them.
2. I resolve to keep being happy and hopeful as best I can, since it's what I know my friends would want.
3. I resolve to make at least one new friend this year!
4. I resolve to try wearing modern clothes at least once a week month.
5. I resolve to keep learning about magic, and to make sure I don't forget everything I've learned already.
6. I resolve to continue beating Cain at things, because it's really quite fun when I do.
7. I resolve to be better about telling people when I need help, even if I feel as though I'm bothering them when I do.
8. I resolve to get enough rest every night, even when it's difficult to sleep.
9. I resolve to beat Edmund in a sparring match. At least once.
10. I resolve to stop fretting about turning twenty this spring, even if it does make me a spinster to do so.

I suppose it's still a bit early for resolutions, since we have another two days left before the end of the year, but I've been thinking about them for a bit and I had some time to write them out this afternoon, so I thought I might as well get them out of the way and have one more thing set. Especially since it seems I did quite well with my resolutions last year, looking back on it! I managed to keep all of them, and I even fulfilled one from two years ago that I didn't quite get to until the beginning of this past August. But it's better late than never, I should think, and managing eleven resolutions in one year is an even better record than last year's nine, so I'm already improving in that respect.

Oh, and thank you again for such a lovely Christmas! I had a lovely time with everyone I saw that day, and all of the gifts were just beautiful. I think I'll try Miss Saya's red coat one of these days, rather than my usual red cloak, since it seems we're back to snow and ice rather than sun and warmth. And all of the jewelry is so lovely that it really makes me a bit sorry I only have one neck to wear it on! Oh, and Percy, thank you especially for such a lovely time, and if you'd like to meet Ellington someday in the same way, I'd be very pleased to introduce you.

I do wonder if we'll see anything special on New Year's Eve, though. I seem to recall we've had fireworks before, which are always quite lovely to watch, even if they are a bit fearsome in the way they roar when they go off. And I think we've had a celebration in the Square before, too. So perhaps that will be something else to look forward to, as well.

But of course, that's the proper thing to do at the end of a year, isn't it? Looking forward? So that's just what I'll do.

Comments

[sparkling-by.livejournal.com]

Hmmm. Is #1 something you should want to do?

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

Well, it's...it's not that I want to stop missing them, exactly. It's just that I think there's a difference between missing and remembering them fondly and missing them so much that I'm always sad about it, and I'd like to learn to do the former rather than the latter. I know they wouldn't want me to be sad, and certainly not if it turns into all I can think about, so much so that I can't be happy with the friends I still do have since I'm so busy missing the ones that I don't.

/slides in like a sliding thing

[thenormalsquint]

Can I steal your number 1 for myself?

FANCY MEETING YOU HERE

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

Oh, of course, if you like! I don't mind sharing my resolutions, if you think you'd like to borrow some of them as well.

[wandbreaker]

I won't go easy on you, you know.

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

I should certainly hope not. It'd rather defeat the purpose of the resolution if you did, wouldn't it?

[sonofposeidon.livejournal.com]

No problem. We'll go see him once the weather gets better.

[pause - OKAY his interest is piqued]

What do you guys spar with?

[wandbreaker]

Swords.

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

Well, it seems Edmund rather got to you first, but yes, he's teaching me to use a sword. I'm not very good at it, though.

[adamantined]

You're fretting about - Getting a jumpstart on resolutions is probably better than putting it off until New Years actually rolls around. Maybe that makes you less likely to give up on them two months into the year.

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

Is February really the proper time to give them up, then? I keep hearing that two months seems to be the number to follow.

[no-defender.livejournal.com]

I don't really think turning twenty makes you a spinster.

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

It's not the turning twenty so much as it is turning twenty without any prospects for marriage, really. My mother would have a fit if she knew, I'm sure.

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

And I resolve not to let the Princess Rosella achieve her six New Year's Resolution.

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

Well, that's troublesome, isn't it? That means one of us is going to be disappointed at the end of the year.

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[treadingdawn.livejournal.com]

Only one friend?

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[primrosella.livejournal.com]

At least one! But I'd be glad to make many more than that, and I certainly hope that I will, too.

[threadthefire.livejournal.com]

More modern clothing, hmmm?

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

I'm thinking about it, yes! Oh, but it's nothing against the dresses I have, believe me! They're absolutely lovely, and I adore them. I just thought I might...try something without all the pockets in it, once in a while. Just to see what it's like.

[had_not_lived]

You can practice by beating me sparring, if you want. Though I don't know how much practice that would really be.



[ooc; dfgfdg HI i am an absentee mun ;_; for Christmas Rosella got 2 big ol' fancy tomes of fairy tales, and one equally fancy and well-bound blank book to write her own, to round out the trio. /apologizes for laaate]

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

Would you duel me on Rollerblades, Neil?


[OOC: Not a problem! Neil's gift is in the list on her previous post! o/ And also THANK YOU FOR THE CARD I love it. ♥]

[doujin-dork.livejournal.com]

Huh. We're pretty alike.

I think that I might have to use some of these for myself.

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

You're quite welcome to, Hiyori!

[worksmart.livejournal.com]

I've been dating spinsters for the last ten years? Why didn't anybody tell me?

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

Well, they're terribly lucky spinsters, then, if they have the pleasure of seeing you. Most aren't so fortunate.

[fatespoken]

Twenty already? You truly are a spinster.

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

Almost twenty, thank you. I still have a few months left.