Quest 097

[primrosella]

[Private//Hackable by Friends]

He's back. He's really back. I kept an eye on him for the whole weekend and now it's Monday and he's still here, so the worry that it might've just been one of those weekend curses, bringing him back and keeping him here for the duration, the way those visitors do sometimes...but it wasn't. I checked and double-checked and triple-checked, and he's still here.

Maybe it's selfish to be so happy that he's trapped here again, when he could be at home with his family and friends and going to his college, but I don't care, not this time. This time I'm going to be selfish and happy and I'm so glad he's back!

I am sorry, though, that Mikaela didn't come back with him.

It's a little strange to think back how jealous I was of her just a few months ago, back when she first arrived. But who wouldn't be, next to someone as lovely and intelligent and confident and modern as she was? And Sam thought so highly of her, too, and I was certainly jealous of that. It's a bit silly, almost, to listen to him speak of her--really, you'd think she was Venus herself, and he merely Vulcan next to her. Silly, because he's far more special than he gives himself credit for; if even half of what I saw in his movie really happened to him...no, he really doesn't give himself enough credit, I don't think.

I was jealous in the beginning because as happy as I could make him, Mikaela always made him happier. And it did make me mad for a while, because--well, he's my best friend and he means the world to me, and she just sort of wandered into the middle of that. And I think I'd still be jealous, even to this day, if I hadn't realized just how much better it is that she and Sam have each other. She went home with him, and even though she's not here right now, she's still there at home, waiting for him whenever he has to go back. And I hate to say it, but I know he'll go back someday. It's foolish to pretend that we'll all just stay here forever and ever, and never have to say goodbye as much as I'd like that sometimes. I'd thought I'd managed to come to terms fairly well with that fact already, but then he left and...well, it's--easier said than done. I know that now. But easy or not, it needs to be done, too.

At least for Sam and Mikaela, they both can go home and see each other and stay with each other, after their time in the City is done. Right now, Blue's the only one I can think of whose world might be linked to Daventry somehow, and even then--even if I do manage to find a way to visit, it'll still--it's so hard, sometimes, making myself remember that he's dead.

...My, I'd better be careful to make sure that Sam doesn't see this, or he'll throw water balloons at me again.

He's right, though. I do think about it too much. Thinking is easier than admitting to myself that yes, there are people here I could fall in love with, I think, and no, they couldn't ever come home with me, and yes, one way or another, if I fall in love with them, we're going to have to leave each other someday. That's just how it is. We keep going on.

But...that's not so different, is it, from the way things are right now, anyway? I know I'm not in love with Sam--no matter how often I joke and Mother insists and Daddy laughs that we ought to get married--but it still hurt just as much to lose him. It hurt when Sirius left, and when Tamaki left, and it'd hurt just as horribly if Blue left or Rue left or Neil and Todd left...so he's right. It's going to hurt, no matter what, and it might never be as bad as it was a week ago, but...it'll hurt. And it'll hurt them when I leave, if I leave, whenever I leave. Just like it hurts to have left Mother and Daddy and Alexander behind.

So if it's going to hurt no matter what I do, isn't it better to be happy with the time there is? That's what Sam said. As much as it must hurt him now that Mikaela isn't here with him, it's better than what it might've been. He still has those memories, if nothing else.

Perhaps it's just that I don't want to admit I'm in love, if it should happen while I'm here.

...Then again, perhaps I don't have to.

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Well, the bad news is, it turns out I had to set back everything I had planned for Friday, which is a bit frustrating because I rather dislike it when I have a lot of things that need to get done and then I suddenly have to rearrange everything on short notice.

The good news is, SAM IS BACK!

Thank you again, Blue, for letting me stay with you those few days, and to everyone that was worried about me, too. I really do appreciate it, and I'm glad to know that...well, that you're all there, in good times and in bad. It means a great deal to me, knowing that. But I'm back in the Warehouse now and everything is getting back to normal--well, as much as it can in the City, anyway.

And speaking of odd things in the City, would someone be so kind as to tell me what sort of creature a "Bulbasaur" is? I had one following me around on Saturday and while it seemed like a very friendly little...er, plant, I suppose?--I wasn't quite sure what to do with it, exactly, other than to put out some water and scraps for it. I do hope it managed all right, though, wherever it went.


[OOC: Yeah, I missed the Pokemon curse 'cause of a wedding, but we're pretending Rosella had herself a Bulbasaur for the whole day shut up I like Bulbasaur. Hey, it was either that or a Roselia, but I restrained myself from the obvious pun this time. =D]

Comments

[had_not_lived]

I have no idea what it is. There were a lot of weird little things around though, weren't there..?

I'm so glad he came back, Rosella.

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

It felt a bit like the fairy-tale curse all over again, with all those little creatures running around. Some of them were terribly cute, though!

I was nervous the whole weekend because I kept worrying it'd turn out to be one of those long curses, but I think he's back for good at the moment!

[had_not_lived]

They were, though I don't know what was going on. I think some of them were fighting?

That would've been awful... do long curses happen all that often?

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

How very odd. Why would they do that, I wonder?

They do every once in a while. There's the weekend curses that happen sometimes, and sometimes things will last two or three days--like the snowstorm, or the rainstorm we had back in April, or when all the visitors came and stayed for two days. The longest one I can think of is the one that lasted a whole week, back when the zombies came.

[mumbled_truth]

I'm happy that he came back, Rosella... and to see you happy again.

Um.

You had a plant following you?

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

Oh, you should've seen me when I realized he was back! I screamed and almost threw my Network device into the wall. But it's good that I didn't, really, because that if I'd done that, I wouldn't have been able to talk to him.

I think it was a plant? It was small and green and had four legs and a large bulb on its back and said "Bulbasaur", which I think must've been its name because that's all it said, or variants thereof.

[mumbled_truth]

Well, I am glad your device didn't get smashed. Of course, I still think it's worth endangering a Network device or two for anything that makes you that happy.

So it was... like a plant animal?

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

Sure thing, Rosella! I'm glad he's back.

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

I am, too. And we're the same age again! Except that he's eighteen both at home and here, and I'm only eighteen here, since it'll be before my birthday still when I finally go back home.

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

All youngsters to me.

/Rue's still heartless =(

[irislover.livejournal.com]

Ehhh?? Your friend has returned?! You must be very happy, Miss Rosella!!

Rueeeeeee get better soon! ;_;

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm ecstatic! He came back on Friday and has been here ever since, so I think it's safe to say that he's back for a while now.

[irislover.livejournal.com]

He is well? Nothing ill befall on him during his stay in his world?

[miss-waldorf.livejournal.com]

Sam who?

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

Witwicky. He's my roommate and my best friend, too.

[miss-waldorf.livejournal.com]

Oh, that Sam.

[not-so-smooth.livejournal.com]

I am going to teach you all about Pokemon.

[ooc: He hacked the upper part but... is pretending he didn't because feelings and emotions are awkward to discuss.]

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

Pokemon? Is that the creature's real name? I've just been calling it "Bulbasaur" because that's the only thing it said all day...

[OOC: Duly noted! She's secretly all worried about him.]

[not-so-smooth.livejournal.com]

That's what they all are. It's a video and card game back home.

Isn't that second tag one of the game names?

[doujin-dork.livejournal.com]

Bulbasaur, a plant pokemon. One of the three typical starters you get when you set out to be a trainer. Can use such abilities as vine whip, tackle, and razor leaf. Evolves into Ivysaur, which evolves into Venosaur, which does a powerful solar beam.

I think they were called pokemon. It was a pretty cool weird curse.

It certainly is. She has three tags total that are plays on game names. =D

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

That's what Sam said, too. Do you happen to know what it might've wanted? I tried food and water, but it didn't seem very interested in that...

YOU ALSO HAVE 'I'M ATTACKING THE DARKNESS'. ADKJFHSDKJFH

[doujin-dork.livejournal.com]

Uh, it probably wanted to battle. Or at least for you to capture it.

Also, YOU didn't make a pun? omfg, who are you?

[horrible-protag.livejournal.com]

Ah, Sam, yes. I met him briefly.

SHUT UP I LIKE BULBASAUR. Also Roselia is not one of the original 150 and I am a purist.

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

Oh, did you? How lovely!

BULBASAUR IS COOL BEANS, but yeah, totes agree with you. :|

[horrible-protag.livejournal.com]

Yes. Lovely indeed.

He seems quite sharp-tongued thoughtful of others.