( Private//Hackable by Friends )[Filtered from Alexis Hargreaves | Blue's Codes | Unhackable]When I was a little girl, a dear friend of the family gave me a toy marionette for my birthday. He'd made it himself, I recall, and it was the funniest little thing, with a little red hat and shoes with curled toes and bright white strings to pull. I remember he showed me how to make it dance in place by pulling this string and that, and he made it bow to me and tip its hat and put on a show, all for my amusement. I was never quite as good at it as he was, but that was only to be expected, I suppose, since he was the craftsman and I was just playing.
I suppose that's rather how that curse the other day made me feel. It was one thing after another after another--and I can't help but wonder if Cain is right, and that the fact that I seem to have had it
much a little worse than most was due to more than just chance. Peas under my mattress, elderly women selling laces and combs door-to-door...and yes, even a dragon.
It's not the first time I've been held captive by a dragon. Still, I'd like to hope, naive though it might be, that it will be my last. And thank you, by the way, to the courageous knights who came to my rescue. I can't begin to express how deeply I'm in your debt, and how thankful I am for your bravery.
Rue, Ahiru, have your shoes gone back to normal, now that the curse is over? Mine did, as soon as midnight came, which is rather a relief. It'd be tedious--and expensive, besides--trying to replace all those shoes with holes worn in them. And as much as I like my glass slippers, I think I prefer my more comfortable shoes for daily business. Particularly when I don't have to tie strings around them just to keep them from falling off, every time I go somewhere.
A marionette on a string has no control over his own movements; he depends entirely on the skills of his puppeteer to move and dance. And I suppose that's rather how curses can make us feel at times, isn't it? Out of control, with no say over our own actions...
Though I think it might almost be worse, having the ability to say but not to
do. At least with some curses, we don't know any better until it's over, and that spares us the feeling of knowing that we're doing something against our will while we're made to do it. It doesn't make it any easier to deal with once it's over, of course, but at least for the duration, we didn't
know. It'd be much worse for the puppet, wouldn't it, if the whole time his strings were being pulled, he could hang there and think about his predicament? What sorts of things would he think about his puppetmaster, I wonder?
In any case, I think I'll have a short break from dancing for a while. Blue's competition is coming up soon, and I'll want to be at my best for it, so I'd better rest while I can.